Surrender, remembrance, nimitta mātram, resumption

Surrender

Real continuous surrender, 

constant ongoing

attitude and state of surrender,

is subconscious.

Surrender may start consciously,

with the awareness of I -

I surrender.

But it cannot continue consciously.

If it did, you would not be able to think of anything else 

other than of surrendering repeatedly. 

Like conscious continuous japa of a mantra.

This makes leading a normal life, a natural life, impossible.

Remembrance

Similarly, constant remembrance.

Remembering is initiated consciously.

It evolves from never to seldom to often to always, to constant.

It becomes constant only when it continues subconsciously.

In superconscious states, 

there is no remembrance, 

there is no I activity, no egoic activity.

So who remembers?

And why remember at all if

only He acts through you,

through your mind,

through your intellect,

through your ego.

nimitta mātram

Pure, simple, direct, transparent, non-blocking instruments.

He wills or desires or inspires.

Your indriyas (inner and outer) 

act accordingly, immediately.

Both surrendering and remembering 

subconsciously, constantly,

lead to nimitta mātram.

Resuming naturalness

Yet, this does not mean all instruments, 

all of the subconscious and 

all of the superconscious,

disappear or dissolve.

They only resume working naturally.

They only resume naturalness in their activities.

Moderation. Naturalness.

Not overactive.

Not missing.

Eternal sequence

Consider Babuji's:

Forget to remember.

Remember to remember.

Remember to forget.

The first two are easy to understand, 

shifting 

from conscious to subconscious, 

from never to always.

Letting go of wilful activity is remembering to forget.

Staying with physical sensations without words is 

remembering to let go - moment by moment.

Consciously witnessing;

letting everything pass;

deliberately yet choicelessly aware;

not letting attention follow 

thought streams, 

thought chains, 

thought webs of association;

conserving the energy of involvement,

staying at the surface, 

staying, observing an emotional trigger and 

then moving on to the next trigger

without going into, 

without following 

what gets triggered -

that is remembering to let go,

remembering to forget.

Letting go of 

meta activity, 

meta thinking -

remembering to forget.

Eternal evolution

Conscious - subconscious - superconscious is not a one-time epiphany.

It is a recurring sequence.

It is an eternal, never-ending sequence of evolution.

For each human, individually.

For humans, in groups.

For humanity as a species.

For Nature.

And why should evolution, eternal infinite continuous never-ending evolution, occur?

Why not? :-)

It elegantly dovetails atheism and deism, Principle and Being, flow and stillness.