Tuesday, 26 December 2023

The light within

The light within is eternal and always there.

We just have to turn inward and look.

And discard our familiar shades and discomfort at seeing reality as it is.

For some, discomfort and strangeness become fear. Shading the light even more.

Why should we feel anything other than joy?

Or wonder?

Or gratitude?

The light within is truly our source and we are only going home.



Turn that changed gaze outward.

See that light within everyone and everything.


Simply look within first before looking without.


Take the "red pill."

But there is no real pain or hardship.

Just eternal strangeness.

Continually letting go, of the familiar.

Continually freeing, one's consciousness.


Monday, 18 December 2023

A little paradox or invertendo

A little paradox or invertendo.

Looking or attending deeper and deeper inside myself I experience more and more common things and states, and unifying me, with others outside me.

Looking or attending outside my body, I experience more and more things differentiating and separating me from others.

Yet if I go outside to subtler and subtler levels, I again find things and states that are common and fundamental.

But going to such subtler levels outside (finding bosons, e.g.), needs immense physical and mental energy, money and outside resources.

Going inward needs only interest. From interest, giving time, opening up to inspiration, letting go of mental strictures - all these follow naturally.

Understanding the natural rhythms of life - both inner and outer rhythms - comes mainly by going inward. Though outer rhythms are understood in a cyclical way - outer experience, inner pondering, inner experience, ponder, change expectations, experience, and so on. Understanding inner rhythms also involves a similar cycle, but outward attention is not needed.

Thursday, 14 December 2023

The Real Problem

Here's the real problem of inward meditation.

When we spend all our time looking outward, we do not get an experience of the inward path. Simple, no?

Even if I sit with eyes closed, if I still think of other people or other things which are outside me physically, I am still looking outward.

My eyes cannot be turned inward to see inside my head, so I have to discard sights in order to go inward. Similarly for the other sensations.

Attention can be turned inward or outward. But if it keeps flitting between inward and outward, I am still vacillating and not able to go deeper and deeper inward.

Suggestions for meditation

Everything coming up mentally referring outside my body must be relinquished. This is the obvious, true, and completely ignored meaning of going inward.

But why relinquish? Because everything that drains mental energy - emotional hurts and pleasures - is based on things outside.

Stop chewing the cud of past events and worrying about future events.

Simply stay in the now, which keeps moving, flowing.

Let the attention move in time from second to second, but remain in the same place physically. If it has drifted away physically, let go of the distraction and the attention will come back on its own to where it was before, and where you placed it first.

This is meditation and training the attention and thus the mind.

(Please note this training is only the first step in Heartfulness meditation.)

A little exercise

(Please take a few seconds - pause - to experience each line and also pause at each comma)

Pausing, with eyes open.

   Becoming aware, of the present moment.

   Letting go, of past, and future, moments. 

   Letting attention dissolve, go to subtler levels.

   Paradoxically, letting physical senses become aware of everything happening, from moment to moment.

   Letting the attention jump lightly, easily, from sensation to sensation.

  Letting it drift lightly, continuously.

  Staying in the present, lightly, continuously.

   Again drifting,

     inward, subtler,

     outward, grosser.

Saturday, 9 December 2023

Attention - thinking to feeling

Meditation is simply paying or giving attention to something without effort or with minimal effort. That thing could be outside or inside the body.

Orthogonal to inside or outside is the idea of limit. That is, that something is limited in space or time or both. Or that something is unlimited.

So something outside and limited, like a candle flame.

Or something outside and almost limitless or unlimited like universal space or universal life, by which I mean that from which all life in the universe has come.

For both inside and outside, for both the limited and the unlimited, when one uses attention the same way - with minimal effort - it is meditation.

As one rests one's attention on something, effort-less-ly, one learns about attention from practice:

  • Over a brief meditation session, or a long session,
  • over many iterations,
  • over the ease of bringing the attention upon something at will,
  • over the frequency of attention slipping away,
  • over the quickness and ease of recovery to the starting object,
  • and so on.

All this (and more) is training the attention through daily practice.

The choice of object decides whether meditation transforms one internally in specific ways or simply hones one's mental prowess.

A transcendental or unlimited object, inside or outside, means one's attention cannot rest on the object for a long time. It necessarily slips away.

A simple example - infinity of natural numbers. I can only hold about, say, 7 or 10 numbers in working memory at once. Beyond that, I switch to general patterns or generating algorithms or whatever helps me to think about the entire infinity of natural numbers at once.

From our own experience, and reports of unethical and immoral scientists, we know that meditation on an infinite object outside does not change us.

Not permanently.

But there are reports of people who have been transformed by meditating upon, or constantly remembering, some entity either immanent or transcendent or both (both within and without - technically called omnipresent).

Sometimes we ourselves have had a numinous experience. As we could not hold on to it as a continuing experienc-ing, it became a memory. It is still useful, for inspiring oneself and others, but one must go beyond a single, or even many, such past experiences. [1]

Feeling the meaning or presence is the next step up from meditation, simply, from thinking to feeling, when one's attention is completely filled by the object chosen to represent that presence. [2]

This complete washing out of attention is technically called samadhi. [3]

It is like tuning an old TV receiver manually and the screen then filling with images decoded from that tuned signal.

But here, when an infinite conscious presence is represented by the object of meditation, the TV screen of the attention and mind is taken over by that presence, which then works on increasing the sensitivity, resilience, and empathy of the meditator. Put differently, changing an old TV receiver from tuning into only the TV spectrum of frequencies to the entire electromagnetic spectrum. With analog and digital decoding as well!

Now, after enjoying and ruminating over it, please drop the TV analogy completely because a TV is not a conscious entity.

While there is indeed a mechanical or physical aspect to the meditative process, it is not rule bound in the way one would think if only one person were involved. As one goes deeper and deeper inside, separative factors (I vs. others) are replaced by factors more and more common to all conscious beings. For example, life and the source of life are about as abstract and common to all living beings as one can consider.

Thus, in a very simple way, one shifts from the definition of meditation itself to different objects of meditation and then from thinking to feeling.


NOTES

[1] One difficulty is due to the habituation ability of the body and mind. They like to feel and then put that feeling into memory to chew over later.

[2] The presence need not be infinite, at least initially. There is a gradation of objects from limited to unlimited to beyond.

[3] Per Sw. Vivekananda in his Raja Yoga, it takes 12x12x12 seconds, approximately 28-30 minutes of effort-less mental attention upon an object for its internal representation to fill one's attention. Once it happens many times, though, it can occur much faster, even reducing from minutes to seconds or less.